Christina Crapotta
A testimony of faith, healing, and God’s beauty in the breaking.
This space was born out of my own walk with God through leaving witchcraft, an abusive Christian marriage sustained by harmful doctrine, a painful divorce, and the long road of healing that followed. In those seasons — especially while recovering from the discard and carrying deep shame — I held tightly to the words, “The joy of the Lord is my strength.”
I repeated those words when I did not yet know what joy was. I only knew it had been promised, and that somehow it would still be mine. All I knew to do was hold the line — to cling to the faith that my Father had me.
In that place, I began to discover that God is not distant from the brokenhearted. He is present, attentive, and faithful in ways I had not understood before. It was in that unraveling that I sensed Him say to me, “Soon, you will see the beauty in Me breaking you down.” What felt like destruction became, in time, refinement. What felt like abandonment became encounter. Slowly, I began to see that even the breaking was not without purpose — and that our Father provides for His daughters with steady, unfailing care.
I believe God meets us personally, not positionally. He walks with us through grief and courage, confusion and becoming — often outside of certainty or approval. The faith formed there may look messy or wild — tear-stained and unguarded — but it is real, brave, and deeply held.
I often say jokingly that I am feral. I don’t mean reckless or faithless. I mean fully myself with everyone, especially God — unpolished, honest, and present. It is about praying the prayers as they are, not as they should sound. Letting faith be lived instead of managed. Trusting that God meets us in the truth of who we are, not just in the circumstances that try to define us.
This podcast is not a space for arguments or theological debate. It is a place to witness the consistency of God’s love and provision through testimony. A place for stepping forward into what’s hard with Him and trusting that beauty is still being formed — even here.
If you’ve found yourself needing to be brave with your faith, working through a painful or confusing season, or learning to trust God in a quieter, more personal way — you’re welcome here.
This is a place for women seeking God’s beauty in the breaking.
Let’s be feral together.